When I’m depressed, one of my red flags is not attending to my self-care, specifically hygiene, like showering, let alone changing out of my pajamas. Sometimes for weeks. It’s just too hard. There are so many steps: washing and rinsing my face; washing and rinsing my long, unruly, curly hair; using conditioner; running a wide-tooth comb through my hair to make sure the conditioner is distributed evenly; washing my body; rinsing out the conditioner; rinsing my body; toweling off; putting gel in and then blow drying my hair (3 minutes) — and that’s if I bother washing my hair at all; applying facial moisturizer and body lotion; and then finally getting dressed in sweats, not “real” clothes. Most of the time I take shortcuts, like wearing a shower cap and then wearing my hair in a ponytail, or dispensing with my skin care routine altogether.
My husband, on the other hand, is in and out when he showers, and the next thing I know, he’s dressed in real clothes. I imagine that’s how it is for most people; they don’t even have to think about getting in the shower — they just do it. It used to be that way for me. However, during a depression, and more recently, pushing myself to do it is a huge struggle.
So last April, I decided to take a step towards making showering easier, or at least easier to deal with my hair: I had it all chopped off. I was wearing it in a messy bun all the time, anyway, so why not? I’d had short hair in the past, so it wasn’t that big of a deal. This pic was taken right after I had it done.
This has helped me shower nearly every day. There’s barely any hair to deal with. I don’t even have to use a wide-tooth comb! It’s so much easier to style: towel dry, put in gel, blow dry (30 seconds), run texturizer through hair. Done. Occasionally, I even wear make-up (mascara and lipstick). My entire shower routine time has been cut by like, half! Also, I use less shampoo, etc. so it’s a money-saver! Haha
I’m not suggesting that everyone go out and do this, but for me, it helps. As I said, I still struggle with showering. I don’t know why. It has nothing to do with lethargy, like when I’m depressed — but it’s like this giant obstacle that I have to overcome, and most days, I don’t want to bother. It’s a little easier to do it now because instead of taking half an hour, it only takes 15 minutes. (Not counting my skin care routine lol) And I always feel better about myself once I’ve showered.
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