What’s on the horizon for my recovery goals? I don’t usually set goals because I’m anxious I won’t accomplish them. I’ve also had to change my expectations (which has been difficult), and therefore, my goals. Such as taking a shower. That’s one of my current goals.
It’s been nearly 2 weeks since I’ve bathed, though as some readers know, my husband washed my hair and I washed up a bit, earlier this week. Basic hygiene is a part of self-care, and self-care is part of recovery and maintaining your mental health (whether you’re mentally ill or not).
After the hypomanic symptoms I experienced 2 weekends ago, I’ve fallen into a deep depression. It isn’t so much emotional, where I feel hopeless and suicidal, but physical. I’m more lethargic than usual and have insomnia. Not getting enough sleep saps my energy even more, but I set a goal to post here every day. Writing, depressed or not, has helped me feel better about myself because I derive benefits from it: I feel productive, and writing, for me, is therapeutic.
To combat my anxiety, I have two goals: to take pubic transportation, and to attend something like a yoga class regularly. In the past 2 weeks, I’ve left my house twice, with my husband, and that was for weekly appointments. Also, I’ve stopped walking the dog in the afternoons altogether, let alone by myself. My husband does it, but it’s my goal to get back to doing it.
My largest goal will take years to accomplish, and will require my therapist’s help. I believe it will aid in my recovery, such as the way I see myself, to be able to accept myself as is, to love myself, to provide inner peace, and to stop seeking my mother’s approval and fulfilling her expectations of me, even though she’s been dead for nearly 2 years. We had a complicated relationship, which I’d like to write about, but finding the words is difficult. The goal is to forgive my mother.
Are you a goal-setter?
What are you mental health recovery goals?
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