I’ve been saying for a while now that I want to go to a yoga class regularly, but have been too anxious to go. I finally faced this fear about 2 weeks ago. I honestly don’t know how I did it, but I showed up (instead of blowing it off and telling myself that I’ll go next time).
It wasn’t my first class ever, so I had an idea what to expect. I just didn’t know what the intensity would be like, because I signed up for “Gentle Yoga.” The little description on the studio’s web site said that most of the poses are done lying on your back. That seemed easy enough, right?
Wrong. Yes, a lot of the poses were done while we were on our backs, but there were many that required balancing on one body part or another, like your foot. Or your knee. I have balance problems as it is, but it’s made worse by lithium tremors. I’ll be in a pose and start to feel my arm shaking, for example. I was afraid of falling to one side and landing ungracefully on my mat. I grew more anxious. I didn’t achieve a sense of inner peace, and certainly not balance, among other benefits of yoga.
And I wish this wasn’t true, because nearly everyone I know declares that it’s so good for your mind and body. I don’t doubt that. But this recent experience made me uneasy, and I realized afterwards that I simply don’t like yoga. And that’s ok.
How do you feel about yoga?