Many of you know that one of my red flags of depression is not showering. It’s such a struggle, partially because I don’t want to get out of bed, I’m too tired, showering has so many steps (skincare, hair, body), and so on. The longest I’ve gone is 2 weeks without showering. I guess that’s my limit.
When I don’t shower, having short hair makes it easy to deal with; on the other hand, when my hair was long I could simply put it up. Sometimes I’d wear a hat. Short hair, for me, makes showering a lot easier. If you’ve ever had long hair, you know what I mean.
So I don’t understand why I’m still having a tough time showering. It’s not as hard to push myself to get in the tub, but it’s still hard. I’ve gone over this with my therapist, and she assured me that many cultures don’t have the same bathing practices as we do, which to me, justified showering twice a week. That’s still a challenge, but less so.
When I was on vacation last month, we stayed at a hotel that has one of those rain showers. I love that type of showerhead (pictured above). The water comes down from directly above and feels like raindrops. I showered frequently then!
But now, I can’t even imagine showering every single day. It’s just daunting. What makes this so puzzling is that I used to shower every day. Now I wonder if I’ll ever do that in the future.
Do you have a tough time showering when you’re depressed?