Splish Splash

rain showerhead
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Many of you know that one of my red flags of depression is not showering. It’s such a struggle, partially because I don’t want to get out of bed, I’m too tired, showering has so many steps (skincare, hair, body), and so on. The longest I’ve gone is 2 weeks without showering. I guess that’s my limit.

When I don’t shower, having short hair makes it easy to deal with; on the other hand, when my hair was long I could simply put it up. Sometimes I’d wear a hat. Short hair, for me, makes showering a lot easier. If you’ve ever had long hair, you know what I mean.

So I don’t understand why I’m still having a tough time showering. It’s not as hard to push myself to get in the tub, but it’s still hard. I’ve gone over this with my therapist, and she assured me that many cultures don’t have the same bathing practices as we do, which to me, justified showering twice a week. That’s still a challenge, but less so.

When I was on vacation last month, we stayed at a hotel that has one of those rain showers. I love that type of showerhead (pictured above). The water comes down from directly above and feels like raindrops. I showered frequently then!

But now, I can’t even imagine showering every single day. It’s just daunting. What makes this so puzzling is that I used to shower every day. Now I wonder if I’ll ever do that in the future.


Do you have a tough time showering when you’re depressed?

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5 thoughts on “Splish Splash

  1. When things are really bad I don’t have the energy, but now it’s more of a not caring enough thing. I can’t go more than three days or else my hair and scalp start to feel gross, so that’s enough to motivate me. I’ve gotten really bad about brushing my teeth. I just can’t make myself care.

    1. Not having energy is another reason I don’t shower when depressed, as well as not caring. Now I actually care a bit more. I’m right there with you!

  2. You know, after I read other blogs that pertain to this self-care routine we fall victim to, I don’t know why, but I feel this sense of unity. (Sounds weird, right)… It’s because I do the same thing. If I’m lucky, I shower twice a week… most times, my hair is tied up, I simply don’t care. It seems like the only time I shower/brush teeth even, is if I’m going out.
    I just don’t have the Umph, to do it. Sounds ridiculous I know, but I’d rather clean than the simple task of taking a shower.

    1. I know what you mean about unity. I always feel like I’m the only one who doesn’t practice self-care, and it feels like a big secret. Knowing that others are this way, too, makes me feel much less ashamed.

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