When I’m depressed, I wouldn’t be able to decide between toast or a bagel for breakfast. And when I’m not depressed, I still can’t. Often, I turn to my husband and ask him if I should do the one thing or the other, hoping that he will decide for me. This rarely works because he rarely tells me which choice to go with! Well, sometimes he does.
What do you think of this outfit? I ask. My husband replies, “Wear what you feel comfortable in.” Or, the red scarf or the darker red scarf? And he says, “Darker red,” when in actuality, I had already made up my mind to wear the regular red one and didn’t need his opinion after all! I only gave these examples from when I’m not depressed, because when I’m depressed, I’m not going anywhere, anyway, so who cares what I’m wearing!
I don’t know how to just choose. Instead, it’s a big production that usually ends up with me making the final decision, anyway. And then my husband throws up his arms and says, “Then why did you ask, if you’re going to go with the opposite choice from what I picked out?”
This behavior on my part must be annoying. The problem is, I have no idea how to stop. Maybe I can Google “how to overcome indecision”? Maybe it’s behavior that migrated from my depressive state and into my baseline state and has become a habit? No clue.
Do you make decisions easily, or do you have a difficult time? Does it become harder when you’re depressed?