Current Mental Health – September 2019

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This post is a week late. Oops.

My mental health has actually been good this past month! I’ve been really active, doing more stuff like volunteering once a week, and physical therapy (for my right shoulder) twice a week.

Sometimes I didn’t follow through on my weekend plans, usually dinner and/or a movie. Part of that is because it’s been gray and rainy. But also because a part of me just wants to stay indoors and not leave my house. I don’t think I’m depressed, and I resolve to keep all of my plans this month.

In fact, we went to a nearby apple festival this past Saturday. I’d been looking forward to it because a candy shop I frequent was selling their caramel apples there, which they only make this time of year. I don’t know what I was expecting, but the reality was bad. It was so crowded, with people shuffling in different directions all at once. I was afraid we’d get separated (we also brought our dog), or that Rudy would get into a scrap with another dog (he didn’t). We stayed maybe 15 minutes, just enough time to find the candy booth and buy some caramel apples. Thankfully, the candy booth was near an entrance so we were able to leave the crowd quickly. We may have left early, but at least we showed up — and survived — so that’s pretty good.

My sleep has improved, I’m now only waking up once a night, like around 4ish. I then move to the sofa and I’m out again til about 7 or 8am.

The shakes haven’t been resolved, but I emailed my psychiatrist today. He said he will put me on a very low dose of Klonopin to — if not make them stop, then at least continue to minimize them. I’ll still be taking propranolol for that, too. I’ll let you know if it works next month.


Do you avoid crowded events/areas? Let me know in the comments!

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25 thoughts on “Current Mental Health – September 2019

    1. Normally I avoid crowds but I really wanted to see what types of vendors would be there and sample different types of apple dishes. Well, now I know to avoid it next year! πŸ˜‚

  1. I do but this past weekend I weathered the storm of people; two days in a row. I am recovering in bed today because it drained me severely, although, I had an ok time. My friend had VIP tickets to an event that lasts four days with a competition of independent filmmakers, chefs, musicians, and fashion designers. Not collectively but…also the yearly fall festival was in the same downtown area with a few miles separating the two. I am proud of myself for getting out of the house but I’m not sure its worth it these days.

    1. I wanted to get out of the house too, and not isolate. Going out, even just on your front step, is definitely worth it. I hope you try again.

  2. If I feel the least bit off, grumpy, depressed, I avoid crowds. Somehow I find it’s often easier to deal with them outdoors in the summer. But I avoid fairs and markets. -R

  3. So pleased to hear from you, Barb! I really missed you, but so happy to hear that your mental health has been improving. I can certainly understand the crowd thing, I don’t like that atmosphere either. However, it was a win-win, and you were able to get you apples! Yay!
    Take good care of yourself!! 😘

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