Current Mental Health – November 2019

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My mental wellness seems to have ended, when we entered Daylight Savings Time and the dark. I’m still on the same medications so the lethargy; the moodiness; and the general, all-around feeling of heaviness must be caused by the weather. I’ve started using my light box. Only 30 minutes each morning for now; I want to avoid a repeat of my past hypomanic episode. I’m not sure if it’s helping. Yet. But I do feel a little better than I did earlier this month.

Another thing that was/is going on is my lack of attention to personal hygiene. It’s become difficult to shower and get dressed, once again. Sometimes I wear makeup (mascara and lipstick) to ensure that I wash my face that night. It works, mostly. Anyway, getting off my routine isn’t helping with my mood, which is, admittedly, better now.

As for my shoulder, I’m getting an MRI on Tuesday. Hopefully that will give the doctor, my husband, and me some answers. The pain has grown worse, to the point where it’s painful almost all of the time, not just when it’s in motion. The pain wakes me up at night, and I can’t take anything but Tylenol because I’m on lithium. My husband thinks I’ll get a shot (of cortisone or something like it) in my shoulder and not surgery. I don’t want to have surgery, either, but I need this pain to go away. It’s making me miserable.

Now, instead of waking up at 3 or 4am for the day, I wake up at like, 9:30 or 10am. Then I get into the mindset of being “behind,” so why bother taking a shower? It doesn’t make sense, but that’s what goes through my head.

I’m managing to keep up my activities like a crochet class, a knitting class, and volunteering. I’m continuing going to therapy regularly. I’m keeping my plans. So, really things aren’t that bad. Let’s just see what next month brings.


How did your month go? Did you celebrate Thanksgiving?

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14 thoughts on “Current Mental Health – November 2019

  1. I’m sorry to hear you are having a rough time. At least you are keeping busy and your appointments, so all is not lost yet. xoxo

  2. The dark evenings are bad for me to. I have to do more physical activity. Stay strong. Your are already aware your not 100% I assume you know how to cope. I find a wash and shower helps lift my mood.

    1. More than one of my doctors wants me to do more physical activity! Good for you for being active. I keep putting it off and putting it off. Then I forget. I must do better. Showering improves my mood as well. I don’t know how I’ve become reluctant to do this chore. Thanks for stopping by!

  3. Hello, Barb. You mentioning the seasonal change in your mood is what I just finished writing about on my Mindfulness Monday post for tomorrow and part 2 for Tuesday.
    My self-care routine is the one thing that seriously suffers te most. I’m trying like hell to break that pattern, but it’s rough. I do understand your thinking.
    As far as you shoulder goies, they probably will suggest the cortizone shot first. That’s what I had gone through for four years, everyother 6 months. (My knees). They don;t work anymore for me… Only option left is surgery, but I have to wait until after my roommate and I move.
    Thanksgiving was spent at my roommate’s sister’s house. (Try saying that 10 times fast). It was very pleasant, thank you for asking.
    How was yours?

    1. I’m glad someone understands the shower thing ❤️ I have a feeling that you’re right about the shot. I’ll find out next week. I just want some relief.

  4. Hey Barb, dayum, SAD is a nightmare, can understand that as Suze suffers from it terribly also, and l can relate to the shoulder injury, as l was out of action for 18 months with mine, and even know l didn’t have surgey but the shots they weren’t needed. The annoyance is once the integrity is lost, the awkwardness seemingly is always there – l hope your MRI yields you some success 🙂

    1. SAD is a nightmare, indeed. I remember about your shoulder. Have you found any relief? I hope so. I’ll get the MRI results on Thursday. 😊

      1. Hey Barb, great to hear from you 🙂

        Happy Monday 🙂

        As to the shoulder, l had injections l didn’t need according to the physio l went to, got some great exercises and started to rebuild that way … sadly though it’ll never be back as it was strength or flexibility wise and l am left with twin involuntary twitching in my right hand, which has now put stop to my artistic drawing days .. but l have at best perhaps 85% of my shoulder back.

        1. Happy Monday!

          It must be rough being unable to do the things you used to. Exercise can be tedious, but it’s good that you are working on your shoulder. I’ve had those shots in the past (ankle and elbow) and they were hit or miss. I have a feeling that injection(s) are the next course for me, rather than surgery.

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