Current Mental Health – December 2019

Acceptance
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Volunteering at an animal rescue: I started volunteering with animals again, after years of merely contemplating it. I could never quite make that leap. I beat my anxiety about it, but I still doubt myself.

At first, I worked with the dogs (giving them outside time, cleaning their kennels, and so on), but since then I’ve been writing thank-you cards to donors pretty much each week. Because I don’t work directly with the dogs, I feel that I’m not as essential to the rescue and that somehow I am less than other volunteers. To be perfectly honest, I prefer thank-you writing because I’ve developed a slight fear of dogs, ever since the time a dog got really mouthy with me — she had my fingers in her mouth and brought her mouth too close to my face for comfort. I didn’t know what to do, and I never mentioned it to anyone. Other people didn’t have problems with her (as noted in the Facebook volunteer group) and she has long since been adopted. But my anxiety remains.

Depression: My depression has mostly remained in remission, although I hit a rough patch earlier this month. I began using my light box again, which nipped that in the bud. Showering is still sometimes a challenge, especially because it’s so cold in the bathroom! But I manage.

Hobbies: I took up knitting again! I don’t think I hold my hands properly, but the proper way is uncomfortable for me. I haven’t made anything yet because I need tons of practice. All of my practice swatches have holes in them, and I keep adding stitches lol! I’m trying to be patient. In case you’re wondering, I still crochet.

Holidays: My husband and I spent Christmas just the two of us and our dog and cat. (Our cat, Angelo, turned 19 in December!) We exchanged gifts and had a very nice meal that my husband cooked: corn and scallion salad, mashed potatoes with a bechamel cheese sauce, and roasted mushrooms with garlic (we’re vegetarians). And apple pie (not homemade) for dessert. Later in the evening we saw Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker (link contains SPOILERS) for the second time in 5 days lol!

Happy New Year! I am looking forward to continued good mental health in the coming year; and now that I’m in my 50s, I’m looking forward to the new decade!


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I hold an MFA in poetry from The Ohio State University. I'm a fiction writer, blogger, wife, pet mom, and Ohio State Buckeye!

5 thoughts on “Current Mental Health – December 2019

  1. Thanks for the update. Glad to hear you are doing well. The dinner your husband made sounds delicious, especially the sauce. Not many people like to write thank you notes, so I bet you’re helping out a Lot at the pet shelter! You’re smart to use your light box, thanks for reminding me, I need to turn on ours in these dark days. I am looking forward to working on minimizing stuff (books, clutter, clothes) in the new year and starting home improvement projects around the house. Happy New Year! Rebecca

  2. Thanks for sharing. I’m so glad you’re doing well and your depression has been mostly at bay thanks to your light box. Writing thank-you letters sounds like a pretty cool job. I’d like that.

    1. The light box works really well, sometimes too well: using it for longer (60 minutes when it was supposed to be 30!) than I should have sparked a hypomanic episode. I really enjoy writing thank-yours. I like the physical act of writing, and it’s more my speed. Happy New Year!! 🎉

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