Avoidance

I’m a big-time avoider. If I can get out of doing something or going somewhere I don’t want to do or go to, I just don’t. However, I don’t do so well when I avoid things. My mind swiftly slides into a state of depression, and it becomes really hard to do anything at all.… Read More Avoidance

Done with PHP/IOP

As of yesterday, I am officially done with the partial hospitalization program/intensive outpatient program (PHP/IOP) I went to for approximately 7 weeks. Though I completed all of the paperwork, I wasn’t actually discharged — I discharged myself. I made the decision to discontinue going to Group about a week ago, though I’d been wanting to… Read More Done with PHP/IOP

Home Alone

My husband was out of town Wednesday through Friday. Staying home alone is a huge undertaking for me, something that my therapist helped me prepare for by helping me dispel any unfounded fears I had. Also, I don’t cook, so we had cold salads (pasta, potato, fruit) in the fridge for me to eat, and… Read More Home Alone

Self-Stigmatization

When I was figuring out what to write about today, this paragraph from my previous post popped up. “Relatives might ask where I am. Others might think Iโ€™m disrespectful for not being there. If I was there, I can only imagine the deluge of questions. Whyโ€™s your hair that color? Do you think youโ€™re still… Read More Self-Stigmatization

The Ride

NOTE: This is a retrospective post. I woke up in the psych ER at ECT Hospital. It was about 5:00 AM, and no one had talked to us, as promised. My husband was slumped in a chair, asleep. It didn’t look comfortable at all — I had a bed. I woke him up and insisted… Read More The Ride