So it’s been a year since they switched my meds. And I’ve been doing really well–thriving. Don’t get me wrong–once in a while when I’m just sitting there, this thought comes out of nowhere: “I’m so depressed.” I was so used to being depressed that I couldn’t recognize other feelings. The feeling of being not… Read More What “Not Depressed” Feels Like
So I began taking a drawing class last Tuesday. I’ve always wanted to do that, but never did. A few months ago, I signed up for the class but ended up canceling because we had to take one of the furbabies to the vet (I can’t remember why). I got really anxious — I didn’t… Read More Keeping Commitments
Wow! I see that WP has changed since I last blogged. I’m not sure if I like it–I can’t even figure out how to insert an image where I want it to go. Oh, well. Since my last post, a lot happened (good things), and I am still not depressed. That I’m not is amazing… Read More The New Year
For those of you who’ve been with me for a while, you probably know that October and November are bad months for me. If you’re new to this blog, you can read more about that here. Historically, my depression gets so bad at this time of year that I have to get electroconvulsive therapy (ECT),… Read More That Time of Year
My anxiety has been bad this past week. I had 2 opportunities to go to martial arts class, but I chickened out both times. On Tuesday I hemmed and hawed until it was too late to go, and on Thursday I woke up knowing that I wasn’t going to go that day. And the weird… Read More My Anxiety Depresses Me
It’s been so long since I’ve been at baseline or, “normal,” that I actually forgot what it’s like to be myself. I lost my sense of self in the heavy blanket of depression, and I know this because recently, I came to the realization that I’m not depressed. That the lithium is working. I was… Read More Being Not Depressed
Some of you may know about my weight troubles. Anyway, I lost 10 lbs. since this past April, so it’s been about 2 months. I stopped eating candy, ate smaller portions, and began using the treadmill. I also started going to PHP #4 in April. Having to get up early, get dressed, and leave the… Read More I Lost 10 lbs.