My anxiety has been bad this past week. I had 2 opportunities to go to martial arts class, but I chickened out both times. On Tuesday I hemmed and hawed until it was too late to go, and on Thursday I woke up knowing that I wasn’t going to go that day. And the weird… Read More My Anxiety Depresses Me
It’s been so long since I’ve been at baseline or, “normal,” that I actually forgot what it’s like to be myself. I lost my sense of self in the heavy blanket of depression, and I know this because recently, I came to the realization that I’m not depressed. That the lithium is working. I was… Read More Being Not Depressed
Some of you may know about my weight troubles. Anyway, I lost 10 lbs. since this past April, so it’s been about 2 months. I stopped eating candy, ate smaller portions, and began using the treadmill. I also started going to PHP #4 in April. Having to get up early, get dressed, and leave the… Read More I Lost 10 lbs.
Sometimes when I feel depressed, I feel like I need to shop. The act of purchasing stuff gives me something of a high. I make my purchases online because when I’m depressed, I’m not exactly leaving my house much, not even to go shopping. I’m not particular with what I buy. It could be some… Read More Retail Therapy
I became interested in reading Natural Disaster: I Cover Them. I Am One., by TV meteorologist, Ginger Zee, because the media was saying that she was opening up about her mental illness (depression) in the book. Now, it’s not bad, but there’s only one chapter out of 20 or so, that addresses her depression, and… Read More “Natural Disaster” by Ginger Zee
I’m a big-time avoider. If I can get out of doing something or going somewhere I don’t want to do or go to, I just don’t. However, I don’t do so well when I avoid things. My mind swiftly slides into a state of depression, and it becomes really hard to do anything at all.… Read More Avoidance
Today I took the day off from going to PHP #4. I’m absolutely tired of and overwhelmed by it. The program is skills-based, which means the therapists teach us skills aimed at like, improving our outlook and tamping down anxiety. I’ve already used a few of the skills, myself. But the knowledge doesn’t come easy.… Read More A Day Off From PHP